Random thoughts that flit through the mind of a semi-neurotic woman.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Getting Serious For A Moment
I try not to post things like this, very personal things but I have to say, I do have to talk about it. Love is a very complicated thing. Nobody can really define it, it's different for everyone. Sometimes you fall into the whole, selfish side of it and sometimes you are the caring one.
It's hard to love wholeheartedly. It's difficult to accept everything about a person, especially when they are clashing with you. You always expect, when you shouldn't expect.
That's the hard lesson of love.
I'm still learning. I know that I am in love. That I try to be a good person to the one I do love, sometimes I mix up my own selfish desires and trumph them up as something I'm doing because I love. Of course this is always when I am in the wrong, sometimes even blindly wrong. At other times, it's hard to accept that I am even in the wrong and I make it worse. I find, I'm pretty good at that.
Also, love takes a lot of patience, understanding. I don't know if I have an exuberant amount of that. And love is tenacious, no matter how mad you are, how upset, how much you want to turn it off, you can't escape it.
And finally, love is just acceptance of whoever it is you are in love with.
Alright well done with that..on another note:
Depression sucks, but it's great when you beat it out. Had a blue day yesterday (well partially) but I am over it. Thanks J.
Another note: I pray to God that Jay finds a thesis, one that he is happy with. I hate seeing him frustrated, or feeling useless. It's just frustration talking, that I know. He's got a lot of talent, he just has to find something that he wants to utilize it on.
About Me: A graduate of Hunter College with a B.A. in American Literature. I flit around from various arts, games, blogs just sampling. Haven't really settled on anything yet.
I enjoy spending time with my tormentor, Jay and his dog Baron Von Doom (yes, that's his full name).
