Restless Thoughts

I'm sort of back

2007-10-16T19:18:00.000-07:00

Things have been a little crazy. I am having a good time in my new job. I actually feel needed and helpful instead of just bsing around as usual. School is going great but I still have to go and get my recommendations before I forget.

Jay got me a laptop for my b-day and as an early anniversary gift he got me a scooter! It's so badass and cute. I can ride it to school and work and it will save me so much in gas and travel cost.

I will also eventually get a raise hopefully and when I do, I will definately make the best of it. (I want to get over 55 grand a year. That will be so awesome!)

That's really been it. Reading Ralph Ellison's the Invisible Man, read it before always a good re-read.

Peace out.

Cat >"<

Happy B-day to me.

2007-09-30T19:16:00.000-07:00

See above. The weekend started out pretty rough but ended on a nice note. Hopefully things will stay as such as its been pretty crazy (thanks in both parts to us). Being 27 makes me feel old, though Jay says I should feel like a 17 year old, sometimes thats hard to do but I try.

Money Woes

2007-09-21T09:00:00.000-07:00

I actually cried today over money and trying to figure out how to scrimp and save to pay bills. The sad part is, I dont really have anything to show for it, just bills upon bills. I don't even know how I got myself into this. I don't have anything extravagant, I don't have a new car, new furniture no nothing yet I am flat broke.

It sort of makes me upset a little to tell you the truth.

But it's my own fault so I can't even say anything about it. I wish I can talk to someone about it but who really is there to talk to unless you want them to pity you and I don't want any pity. I just don't know what to do.

I may see if I can work on Saturdays in the morning since I'm strapped for cash. Let's see what the boss man says.

Anyway I feel better after posting this, I guess life goes on huh? funny its all happening before my birthday ha!

Totally Wiped

2007-09-01T10:37:00.001-07:00

Ce La Vie

New Job, Back To School

2007-08-28T22:44:00.001-07:00

Hey, its been a while since I posted last! Many things happening. You guys got the message that I was back from Nigeria (it was loads of fun of course) and I did some temp work which for the most part was crap. Got paid 13.50 for work that was insane.

Well I got out of that and now work for JLS Designs/Architecture. It's basically a one man architecture firm and I am his assistant. Been there for 2 days already and so far I do like it. It's like being a PA for someone. I got Jay a gig there too so he's designing the guy's website for him. It's not bad and for the most part I like my co-workers. They are pretty much the same age as me, (my assistant (sort of assistant, does that even make sense?)) is in her Sophomore year in college taking, lo and behold, English Lit. I told her pretty much there is no money in it and to stay with internships, those are her best bet to get some type of decent job.

The benefits are decent and the pay is better then Liberty Controls and my boss is pretty nice I guess, from what I can tell for now. It's a little hectic. I don't have a real seat, I basically bounce around from one desk to the other since I am doing most of his billing in the laptop which is in his office, then sometimes I am on the phones outside or doing other stuff.

Ironically the place is located at my old HS haunts. It brings back the days when I use to hang out there with my Uncle Joe and Uncle Andy or going to the Crazy Moose Saloon (which is closed by the way so its a bit saddening). I work pretty close to Melissa's house so that's different and I am guessing close to Evelyn's house too.

Also, going back to school. I have classes on Wednesdays from 4:30 till god knows when. I made this elaborate scheme as to how to get there becasue I'm so pressed for cash that I don't even want to spend 15 bucks to take a cab there. It's not worth it. Gonna test out my whole, taking the Long Island Railroad to the MTA bus and see how that goes down.

Besides that nothing new, Jay is back to school and he's still working in Galison. We're pretty busy and I sort of miss the downtime. Like today I was so tired from work that I actually slept at 8 pm and got up at this insane hour. I have to be up by 6:30 so I'm probably going to hit the hay soon.

Besides that, nothing else going on. (Thank god, I don't think I can take anymore)

Ah, I did finish reading Philip Roth's new book Everyman. Not a typical Philip Roth book hence I am utterly impressed. It was a mixture of both the celebration of life and the finality of death. Pretty much that you should enjoy the things you do now and consider what you have when you have it before its too late type of schpiel. I am attempting to read Crime and Punishment next but as I told Jay, just the font of the book intimidates me. It's one of those that you look at and abhor because it brings you back to the Highschool days when your teachers gave you books you DID NOT want to read.

Jay is reading I am Legend. I am going to read that next, but so far from what he's read to me (It was cute that he read it to me outloud) it sounds very exciting.

FYI I put up some Nigerian pics on my flicker. If you look it up, its on cbautista930@yahoo.com or just search for my name: Catherine Bautista on the Flicker search.

Till next time.

Cat

Back From Nigeria

2007-07-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

Well, we got back about 4 days ago from Nigeria and let me tell you, the trip going there and back was just insane. It was like God was trying to tell us something, but we made it and now we're back tot he real world.

It was really fun in Nigeria, we took a crap load of pictures so I'll make sure to put some of them up. It was different and sort of the same but definately a great experience. I would love to go there again and visit the different states next time.

Right now I'm back in NY and the first thing I do is of course look for a job. I already am enrolled in classes and have gotten one interview, the next step is to get more and hopefully get some decent money out of it.

Besides that everything is good, me and Jay had a blast and I miss Nigeria already.

=)

Sort of in a bad mood?

2007-06-18T13:00:00.000-07:00

Nice Surprise

2007-06-13T09:38:00.000-07:00

You know, I always write on my blog even though I know barely anyone ever reads it or comes across it but yesterday I had a nice surprise. One of my online friends, she said she visited my blog occasionally (thanks pink lady!) and it was really really sweet to hear that.

Now I feel like at least I don't just rant to myself which I usually do regardless if anyone visits or not.

What else..I've been getting these headaches lately. Serious headaches that I cannot for some reason or other get rid of. It is so annoying. I've tried everything to no avail.

Ugh..oh..and me and Jay joined a new guild last night. Burning Blitzkreig. They seem nice enough so I hope we stay with them for a long while.

Besides that nothing else, ah Jay's mom came to visit. Some drama but Jay worked it out. I'm happy for that and the quest to Nigeria still continues. All I have to say about it is LAWL.

Throwing a Part-e

2007-05-29T13:06:00.000-07:00

I want to throw one. Just one party..well more like a barbeque where we all gather to play football, or softball or some other sport where people can kick each others ass and drink beer and be loud and friendly.

Gonna see if I can wrangle up some of my friends, offer to save the space in the park and just hang out. Hopefully it will be great fun but first I got to talk Jay into it.

What else is going on?

Well I finished my Non-Matriculated Application to Queens College for their teacher's education program. I'm going to have to apply in December for the Fellowship Program to see if they will pay me to actually do these classes so I can teach by the beginning of next year. Going to call and check on that first.

What else is going on? Nothing much else. Things are good, oh..new fave song:

Linkin Park -Shadow of the Day

Tool 's new CD 1000 Days is pretty good too, got to listen to their first song.

Lastly - Allergies..are not fun at all. Been having them all week. It's been crazy.

Welp that's pretty much it. Hopefully the whole party idea will be a good to go thing. I really want to play volleyball or football (prefer football really).

Oh, and me and Jay are leaving definately on July 3rd. We still have to make sure we get a dog sitter for Baron which will probably be my sister Alex.

So..I am going to Nigeria..and I got into the Teaching Program

2007-05-25T12:24:00.000-07:00

yes..just look above. Isn't that fun? Just wanted to tell you all, haven't been blogging much lately but I guess I just wanted to inform you guys.

Besides that nothing else is going on. Oh and when I come back, I'll need a job. (Looking forward to a new job! Yes!!!!!).

Zappa

2007-05-12T19:48:00.000-07:00

Tired, been sick and we've been fighting. I was good today and hoping it will be for a while.

Allergies, Summer School, and Other Work Related Matter

2007-05-04T07:22:00.000-07:00

Okay so first of, I didn't get the job. They were super nice to me, they really wanted me but I didn't get it. Which may be a good thing. A sign from God that I should move on and get something else. I'm really bored with my job and I'm more worried that I'm not doing anything that is worth while in the long run.

Next, I applied for summer school so that I can get my certificate in Healthcare Administration. I can't go wrong with it since it teaches you billing and insurance related matter. I spoke with my aunt, she says its a good step so, hence I'm going back to school. Hopefully just night classes though (not looking forward to day classes) since I'll be working full time.

Oh, and yes I am quitting my job but that won't be till the end of June when I go to Nigeria for 3-4 weeks with Jay. After that I pick up any job that is 9-5 in Queens so I can go to school at night. My goal is to graduate before May (I only need a certain number of credits so it won't be that bad).

Jay's survey is today. His group made this awesome book (he doesn't really like it but I think it looks really good, well..because one of MY pictures are there!).

What else is going on? Trying to find a home based part time job is a biotch. Seriously. I'm considering doing this one job..it's a bit on the adult side but mostly dealing with cash/money managing. So I am pretty happy (sort of not really) about that.

Ah, I got a new phone! Cingular, sony phone that I can actually listen to music to! I love it. It's the best choice b/c I don't have to carry around my ipod or anything. Just my phone and I'm set. Plus I get free imaging on it so I can send pics and other multi-media stuff to Jay.

My Life

2007-04-23T09:43:00.000-07:00

Is like a song whose tune changes dramatically each second.

Nice opening huh? Well it's back to finding a new job because I really am beginning to hate this job. No bonuses, no raises (I've capped off), health insurance took me 6 months to get and my bosses are..well..actually most of them are really nice so I won't complain.

Me and Jay went to go see my Uncle Joe in upstate. Fun, fun it was.

My mom's birthday is coming up, got her a new lcd tv for a good deal. Hopefully it will ship in time. What else?

Sick..very sick. I can't breathe and I can't swallow. Jay thinks I'm joking but I'm not. I'm really sick (*sad panda*).

So I didn't get the job

2007-04-20T13:03:00.000-07:00

Well I didn't get the job I was applying for. I really liked the place too and the partners were super nice and I felt it was a job that I could eventually move up from.

I feel like the jobs I've been getting are mostly dead end jobs or jobs that I have absolutely no interest in. This one was slightly different and I'm very, very disappointed that I didn't get the job.

They said that they really did like me too. It's unfortunate I didn't know the software so basically it was based on skill.

Sometimes I wonder where I'm going to end up, what I'll be doing in the future. In truth I don't really have a career. I've got jobs but nothing to even call a "Career".

That sort of makes me slightly depressed and tired of looking and applying for job upon job upon job.

I always move from my job at least after a year because I get bored of it, because it gets monotinous. I feel like I've no goal and that everything I'm doing is really pointless and mediocre.

I wish I can talk to someone about this. Its making me slightly depressed you know. Nobody really understands how important a job is that will pay for your tuition. I can't take out anymore loans. I'm totally maxed out on loans. I can barely save enough for rent much less tuition fees.

Sometimes I wish I can win millions of dollars or that I was smart before and saved my money but then I never did, how can I when I was working to pay for school and even when I was working it wasn't enough to cover it. I always ended up taking loans. It's really ridiculous.
And slightly depressing.

That was really why I wanted the damn job in the first place. It was a way to pursue the degree without having the added trouble of paying the tuition for it.

Ah well..back to the drawing board.

New Job

2007-04-18T06:24:00.000-07:00

Possibly, or hoping to get a new job. We'll see soon. I'm not really sure, they called me 2 twice already, I met the staff and they called me this morning but I didn't get a chance to pick up my phone. I just want to know if they will be hiring me or if they won't be so I can put my hopes up for a different job.

Right now I have a current job so it isn't that bad. But its very very very boring and very very very mundane. Hopefully I will get a chance to actually work with this new company and get better hours. The 9-5 pm sounds ALOT better in comparison to what they originally wanted me to work.

Freaky Friday

2007-04-13T10:24:00.000-07:00

Had a dream last night..it was one of those dreams that you wake from and you feel like things are going to go down the shit tubes and then it bothers you all day.

I am feeling anxious, like something bad will happen, I wish it will just happen just to get it over with. I hate that feeling.

Ugh.

Welcome Back

2007-04-10T14:41:00.000-07:00

Nothing to really talk about. Happy Easter and all that fun stuff. It was pretty good, me and Jay went to my family's party. Jay played basketball for 20 minutes before wanting to pass out on the floor. I played some tennis, it was pretty good.

We saw Grindhouse. I liked the first movie more then the second movie. Rodriguez's fast paced storyline caught my attention more.

Hmm..what else. Little tiff here and there but things are settling down. For some reason me and Jay are both super tired even though we really didn't do anything. Hopefully we're both not drowning into depression (sometimes it seems like it).

What else? Nothing else, talked to my friend Jess, she's getting married in august in Hawaii. I may have to save for it. Hopefully I can do it.

Nightmare

2007-04-03T06:04:00.000-07:00

I had one this morning. I woke up, got the barbequed chicken ready then went back to bed for about an hour. It was during that time that I had the worst dream and the best part, I knew it was a dream so I just walked about letting myself feel the emotions.

My dream had to do with Jay not acting like his normal self, and another too. It was the way I saw them, heard them, talked with them and the way I was treated, like I was an idiot that was blind to their ways.

Everything screamed betrayal and when I woke up, I couldn't breathe. I was afraid it would happen, that I would be the fool. It took me a good couple of minutes to get my head straight and talk myself out of it.

Well..so that was my weird dream of the day. Hopefully all it was is a dream and it has no portentious meaning.

Ethical or Unethical

2007-04-02T12:06:00.000-07:00

Is donating an egg from your body an unethical or ethical choice? I've always wondered. On one hand you will be helping a family on another it is basically your child you are giving away, for money nonetheless.

Why do I ask? One of my friends were actually talking about doing it. I myself couldn't perceive doing such a thing but her, well I suppose it is up to her.

I'm not sure. Just something I am pondering about.

Restless

2007-03-30T11:54:00.000-07:00

Embodiment of anxiety,
Utter loss of control

Mind numbing headaches
For filtered intense thoughts.

Anxious dreams of old
And now all in a stew.

Time to fly high
But afraid of the fall
From the precipice.

I like writing cryptic poetry. Some of what I'm feeling now. Not too good but always even in darkness there is light for then what is the inky blackness without it's contrast partner?

Unsaid Things

2007-03-22T09:18:00.000-07:00

There are things you want to say but you know you can't say them. It isn't that you don't have words for them, or maybe it is.

I can fill this blank paper with so many words, so many thoughts but is it worth even writing. Maybe it is a passing emotion that I experience because of that moment.

Is there a we, or is it just I and then you, then the gap of words, actions, emotions that distance people.

We are a strange lot. Sometimes I feel like there shouldn't be any feelings, that I'm just made up of feelings. Better not to feel, but then I know that without them, I wouldn't know the joys too.

Better not to think about it. I'm being very complicated right now.

My thoughts are in fragments.

End.

Haven't Posted in a while

2007-03-14T19:55:00.000-07:00

Sorry about that, haven't posted in a while. Actually have been caught up in some new J-dramas. My new favorite, Nodame Cantabile. Very funny and very sweet.

Me and Jay have gotten our couch. It should be here by Monday. We went to see 300. Awesome movie. Jay says we can see it again so I'm happy. He has spring break right now but we're not really doing anything. We are going to see the Maimi/Nets game so that should be fun.

Hmm..nothing else going on really. Ah, we redid our 2nd bedroom into Jay's work room. It looks very nice. Next week we are going to redo the livingroom too. It wasn't bad. It cost us 400 bucks, and 2 days of manual labor.

Oh, Jay redid his website. You should check it out. My sisters graduation is on May 12. I'm proud of her even though she's not talking to me right now. Heheheheh.

Hmm what else? The search for a new job continues, oh and I sprained my ankle. =( Hopefully it will get better soon.

New Blogs, Sick, Blaaah

2007-02-21T06:58:00.000-08:00

Jay got a new blog. He's using wordpress now. Because Blogger isn't good enough! Joking, well probably b/c Wordpress has more features, you guys should check it out.

I've been going to the doctor's a lot. So has Jay. We are hoping everything is alright. Let's just pray.

Been watching Korean dramas lately. So far my fave:

Attic Cat
Goong
My Girl
Full House (is actually good)

These are mostly Korean Romantic Comedies. I'm not much for soaps but I like soaps with endings and these all have endings. The longest I believe is Goong which has 24 episodes. I love all the girls, I think they are very pretty.

Valentines Day

2007-02-14T06:53:00.000-08:00

Yep, happy V-day for all you <3 out there. For V-day I've decided to take Jay to Atlanta but it will be in the summer for the How convention. It's something for designers, I figured it would be the most romantic thing to do with him.

Sent a cake to Jay and flowers to my mom. I hope they like it.

I found an actual sappy song I really like. It's called Completely by Christian Bautista. My little sister loves him, I'm not too crazy about him but this song is really touching. I really love it.

I've been watching K-dramas..or Korean dramas and the best one so far is Goong. They made a Goong S but it isn't as good.

I like sappy movies. I want to see that movie, Lyrics and something with Drew Barrymore. I like her, I think she's sort of sappy and happy. She reminds me of a flower child.

You make me happy, even when I'm so very troubled.

2007-02-08T11:20:00.000-08:00

You make me happy, even when I'm so very troubled.
When things get all awry and I feel so alone.

Like darkness is everywhere
Lurking within.
You make me happy, even when I'm so very troubled.

When I have none to whisper to
My troubles and my doubts.

You make me happy, even when I'm so very troubled.

Yes..I'm corny and I don't care. Today was one of those blue days that turned slightly better. -Thanks.

Busy, Portentious?

2007-02-01T12:37:00.000-08:00

Like I said, things have been busy lately. Well not really with me. I'm just working, caught up with everything basically I have almost 3 hours to myself at work everyday to do whatever. It's good to have worked my fingers to the bone because I know it won't ever be that busy ever again.

My parents came back and they found out about the whole alex thing. It will remain nameless. (Alex is my little sis, and I have another named Abey and Aissa).

Had dinner with friends lately. It's good I loved having them over, cooking for them and all that fun stuff. Hopefully it will always be like this, having friends over and all that fun stuff.

Hmm..what else. Been going gaga over WoW because I'm one of those that must have every recipe and faction and etc.. known in the game. It's the collector in me that calls. I could care less about instances or about weapons. All it is for me is mining/enchanting/money. Ha.

Jay's been busy with his thesis and group project. He's sort of in a tizzy but I know he'll pull it off. =) *has faith in him*

Over 6 months at work now..starting to look for other jobs, for shizzle. Oh..and I want to go away..like to another country this year. I'd like to visit some place exotic and out of the ordinary. I love airplane rides (even though I'm scared) I like the feeling of leaving things behind for a few days. I'm like that..nostalgic and an escape artist all the way.

Oh, we still have yet to buy a new couch. I'll post when we do get it.

The Breakup and The Colts

2007-01-22T07:58:00.000-08:00

The Breakup: Good movie. Each person in the relationship will learn something and hopefully take things into considertation. For yourself and for your significant other. Oh, and when watching keep an open mind. The fault does not lie just on one person, in a relationship (unless it is cheating) it rarely ever does.

*Warning: Do not make the movie the basis of your relationship. Just some food for thought for you and your other half.*

The Colts:
WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO they beat those damn Patriots. No more smiling for you gd Tom Brady!

Artemis Enteri, Design 101 Continues, Burning Crusade and Life

2007-01-17T07:31:00.000-08:00

Nice combination right? Well let's start backwards just to throw some flare into this post:

Life:
Is life. There are good and bad things but we all learn to deal with it and hopefully upon learning that we become a better and happier person. Such a true thing and I am glad for it. Things this year are in the up and up. Cowboys sucked but we got facials, I don't know if one is better then the other. We have our friends coming for dinner every week and Jay is going back to school.

We are going to try a schedule and see how that goes which may give me a chance to go to the gym with my mom. So I am looking forward to it.

Almost 6 months at my job, only until August (or late July) then I can start looking for another job. (I like to change it up, that is until I find a place I am truly happy in.) But I am keeping my 1 year promise which is always a good thing.

Burning Crusade:
Came out, only game that I thought I would cry if I actually didn't get it on the day it came out. You can ask Jay, I was really upset when I found out we needed another copy just to play the damn game. Is it worth it, I don't know if any game is ever worth it, hopefully in some semblance of reality it is.

Design 101:
Continues. We have the livingroom almost set up. We just have to buy the posters and of course the other couch or love seat so maybe sometime before the end of next month we'll have that done and then we can just focus on painting but that won't be till the summer. (Thank god!)

Artemis Enteri:
My new vigilante hero! The last book in the Sellsword Trilogy was...well..I won't give anything away when I say, excellent! Enteri is a bastard to say the least but a rightious (I am not spelling that right, oh well) one.

Well that's all folks, I'll keep the posts coming of course. Till next time!

Cooking and Tired

2007-01-10T15:57:00.000-08:00

Some of our friends are coming over today so I've decided to make adobo (my mom's speciality when she cooks filipino food). I hope it tastes like it (or something close to it). It seems to taste like it.

Also, I've decided..I love banana republic. I love the simplicity of their clothes, the style of it all. I want to buy all their stuff, even their shoes.

Other news? Nothing else, my parents went to the Philippines for a couple of days. Hopefully they will have a restful vacation.

AT LAST

2007-01-08T11:12:00.000-08:00

I hate Google. Took me 3 days to be able to access my blogger account. 3 days. WTH. I wish I kept my blog in my old account, seriously. It was very very very annoying.

Well nothing new except for good things. Dinner with my mom and Jay was very good. I'm hopeful now that this year will be productive year for my parents and Jay. I want them to be able to get along somewhere (so I thought this to be a good stepping stone).

What else? Redecorating the apartment. It is costing us some money but I hope it will turn out very well. So far just some new furniture here and there and getting rid of our old couch (I'll miss that couch). It was Jay's first couch that he bought (I was with him and helped him pick it out). But we're also buying a new love seat. It will match our living room furniture so it will be nice.

What else is going on? Nothing else, working hard this year. I vow to make this a good year at work and I also vow to last at least a year here before finding a new job with more money (always more money).

Oh..and Cowboys suck. (That's all I have to say about that.)

Hope you guys are having a good year so far!

Happy New Year

2007-01-02T12:06:00.000-08:00

Well, Jay's brother's have gone so it is just me and Jay in the house again. I must say after having 2 kids (they're bigger then me, does that still count as kids?) staying in the house it will be very quiet to have it be me and Jay again.

The holiday's was good, spent it with family again (both Jay's and my family). And so now I'm back to work (oh, how I do not miss work, one of my new year's resolutions, find a job that I will be satisfied in).

Nothing else going on, no new stuff. Have some pictures my Uncle Joe took of my family for New Year's, I'll post it up soon. Also Jay took a couple of pics with his brothers, I'll see if he'll share so I can post that up too.

What else? Ah, I saw Rocky. It was awesome. I loved the story, the whole cheesy plot line. Who would have thunk that Silvester Stallone can do it one more time?? Well I sure as hell didn't know he could. Very, very, very good movie, nice feel good emo stuff.

Still waiting for my tea, I got my tea pot now just waiting for something to boil it in, then I'll be happy.

What else? Oh, still broke. HA! When am I ever not? Well this year another resolution: SAVE MONEY. I mean, really save this time. No more junk crap to buy, just save save save save.

Me? I'm doing well. Some resolutions I've jotted down in my mind to keep (did reveal some to you all but not all). Hopefully it will be a good year, this year, where I turn 27. (Jeez, I'm getting old..*shiver*).

Merry Christmas

2006-12-26T14:25:00.000-08:00

Well, be-lated Christmas. It was a good Christmas, lots of family stuff and the like. Got some great gifts, including some very exotic tea from Jay. I got Jay a new camera which he has been using already (I'm happy about that).

Jay and his sister gave the Wii to his brothers for Christmas and I must say, after seeing it, I want one too. Ha. I guess I'll buy it for myself as a super late Christmas gift some time in January/February.

Besides that, spent some Jolly Good Hours with my Family, I'm happy. I missed them, I'm thankful they are good and everything is fine.

Well that's it, hopefully I'll write again before the New Year comes to pass. If not, Happy Holidays and hope that you get everything that you wished for.

Tis the season

2006-12-20T12:09:00.000-08:00

To be unbearably broke, though very satisfied with the whole idea of gift giving. A time where I can pick things that will put a smile on my fave persons faces just for the sake of it. Even with the aggravation of customer service, that smile is oh-so worth it.

Oh and here is a funky quiz response I got:

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Titanic

2006-12-13T05:59:00.000-08:00

Slowly sinking..try to stay a float, I hate these weeks.

Blah.

Been A While

2006-12-11T08:13:00.000-08:00

Well, it's been a while and things are going fine, except for today of course.

I can list this day as one of the crappiest days ever (with little to few exceptions).

First, still no credit..something I've been waiting over a month for now so I have to yell at them.

Next, REALLY REALLY BROKE. Like I just put in gas in the car and I have literally 5 dollars in my pocket.

And some other stuff which just pisses me off all the more.

Third, I feel like crap. Haha..

Exceptions:
My babe was sweet to me when I woke up and offered to let me use the car today.

..I think that is all the exceptions for now.

I just want to crawl into a hole until this day is over so far. Seriously..over.

Hello..yellow..blue

2006-12-04T10:14:00.000-08:00

Nothing happening really, though I did get to talk to my mom. Good things only. =)

Cowboys are rocking, so not much there.

Monster House is really good btw.

Feeling a little blue today. *sigh*

Cold a little.

Yellow.

Happy Thanksgiving

2006-11-25T14:42:00.000-08:00

Happy belated Thanksgiving to everyone.
Cooked a turkey for me and Jay and a whole bunch of food which is still sitting in the fridge.

I'll post pics when I decide not to be lazy of the food. I'm proud since this is the first time I ever made a turkey.

We didn't do much at all. We did see Stranger then Fiction. Good movie. I must recommend to all.

And of course the Cowboys rocked, so that's always a good thing.

Anniversary

2006-11-18T15:44:00.000-08:00

2 years yesterday. Wow, well hope many more to come. =)

Seems like it's been longer then 2 years, like we have known each other for at least 10 years. I suppose it's familiarity and it is a good thing.

It's wonderful to be able to wake up next to someone you love being with, and even better to know there are many more days to come like so.

Getting Serious For A Moment

2006-11-15T12:49:00.000-08:00

I try not to post things like this, very personal things but I have to say, I do have to talk about it. Love is a very complicated thing. Nobody can really define it, it's different for everyone. Sometimes you fall into the whole, selfish side of it and sometimes you are the caring one.

It's hard to love wholeheartedly. It's difficult to accept everything about a person, especially when they are clashing with you. You always expect, when you shouldn't expect.

That's the hard lesson of love.

I'm still learning. I know that I am in love. That I try to be a good person to the one I do love, sometimes I mix up my own selfish desires and trumph them up as something I'm doing because I love. Of course this is always when I am in the wrong, sometimes even blindly wrong. At other times, it's hard to accept that I am even in the wrong and I make it worse. I find, I'm pretty good at that.

Also, love takes a lot of patience, understanding. I don't know if I have an exuberant amount of that. And love is tenacious, no matter how mad you are, how upset, how much you want to turn it off, you can't escape it.

And finally, love is just acceptance of whoever it is you are in love with.

Alright well done with that..on another note:

Depression sucks, but it's great when you beat it out. Had a blue day yesterday (well partially) but I am over it. Thanks J.

Another note:
I pray to God that Jay finds a thesis, one that he is happy with. I hate seeing him frustrated, or feeling useless. It's just frustration talking, that I know. He's got a lot of talent, he just has to find something that he wants to utilize it on.

AC Photos

2006-11-12T20:53:00.000-08:00

AC Photo 1

AC Photo 2

AC Photo 3

AC Photo 4

Borat, PVP's, WoW and Apartment Re-design 101

2006-11-08T12:28:00.000-08:00

First of, may I say this "Very Nice! I like alot!" My personal fave quote from the movie Borat. If you haven't seen it WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!

Next, I HATE doing research for tech junk. I leave that up to Jay because it just gives me a headache but today I was inspired. I actually found a very very very interesting PVP (for you uneducated techies out there, which I was part of till recently, (which I am probably still part of so I shouldn't be claiming anything) Personal Video Player). It is almost as small as the Ipod but bigger in screen size, the Archos 404. I bought it for Jay for our 2 year anniversary (wow, it's almost that mark huh?). I think I wanted to get it because for the most part I am proud I researched it (I was torn over the Archos 604, the Cowon A2 and the Creative Labs W, all very good PVP's but just way too big to be carried around, hence I opted to get him the Archos 404). I know I should really get one for myself, but to tell you the truth, I doubt I would use it that much. I am more an mp3 player and the whole process of just downloading things and storing it into a device is so tedious for me. I probably update my Ipod every month, so basically once I have a song in there, it's there for life.

Also, been into this damnable WoW phase. Haven't had any dreams of WoW (THANK GOD) but I may. Once it gets to that point, I think it's time to retire it for a while. I think I like it more now because I have someone to level with (Jay, which is even better). To tell you the truth, I actually wanted to play WoW as one of those couple incentive things but I never knew we would both enjoy it alot. So I am thankful for LoveandAdvice.com. (Yes, I'm a nerd, I read about relationships, yada yada which is a GOOD thing! Because sometimes I have a one track mind).

Me and Jay are planning to redesign the apartment. We are looking for inspirational rooms, preferably those with alot of color (We didn't get the apartment and I was greatly disappointed). Haven't found anything I really liked as of yet but we will be going to Ikea this weekend and checking things out. I don't think we should buy anything, just look around (browse if you will) to get a handle on what we can get, what will fit and what will suit the apartment.

Mini Vacation, Cowboys Return Double Time

2006-11-05T22:51:00.000-08:00

-The Art of Happiness-

Mini vacance (as the french would say) in Atlantic City was good. We walked around, saw the sights, lost money (bleh) but all in all fun. Got to drive him though, probably the "worst" part of the trip (though I wouldn't even say that was bad, I am not much of a driving fan so I am probably being dramatic when I say "worst".)

Started writing my story, so far 3 pages, only 72 pages more to go before the month is out. Didn't do any writing this weekend, so I'm "really up to date." (Yeah, the sarcasm drips from that one). I do have to say I am excited about the story, not every day that I am tempted to do some major writing, so any is a bonus for me.

Today's Cowboy game reeked. Last week I had thought we made a come back, with big BIG improvements, well they proved me wrong. Ugh, and I dragged Jay and his friend to a sports bar to watch it too, much to my chargin and frustration.

(BSG, just wanted to throw that in there and Apartment hunting may come to an end. Wish us luck tomorrow.)

Whenever Jay shares the pic files, I'll put up pics from AC.

Gym time

2006-10-21T09:12:00.000-07:00

Gonna try to start going back to the gym. I think I'm gaining weight not losing it lately, though I haven't really been eating much (which is a good thing). Just have to "try" I suppose.

Knitting

2006-10-17T10:48:00.000-07:00

Well I started knitting again. Fun, fun. I just finished knitting a scarf for Jay (which took me at least 2 months since I had to do it without putting holes into the damn thing) in black, a small thin one for Baron (it's "fruity" rainbow, and it's hilarious) and now knitting one for me (well maybe, I may just give it away to my sister and knit myself a different one, or knit Jay another one, we'll see).

Watched the Bears Vs. Cardinals game. I was cheering for the Bears mind you (yes I know they are undefeated). I usually cheer for the underdog but for some reason Lienhart (is that his name) just reminds me of that other annoying quarter back from the Patriots . The Bears defense was awesome though and their offense, may I say..just sucked..royaly. Makes me wish the Cowboy's defense was like so.

Ah, we're going to Atlantic City at the end of the month. I'm pretty happy about it. I love taking vacations since I think that I don't take enough of them. Everyone should go away once a weekend and take a vacation from the real world. It's a good way to relieve your stress (or so that's how I see it) even if it isn't somewhere you have to fly to. We just have to figure out what to do with Baron. I may ask my sister to watch him for us or something. We'll see.

Hmm..what else..well other stuff, not really too fun but things move on, and then you realize it's just rubbish and that there are other things more important. That's all I have to say about that.

Cowboys Vs. Eagles

2006-10-08T17:28:00.000-07:00

Bledsoe is an a-hole. That's all I have to say about this game. He's got to be the worst quarterback in the league. I'm serious.

He better not start next week. We're in agreement of this. If he starts, screw the Cowboys, they are just signing their death warrant and I don't want to support a team as such.

I'd rather be a Jets fan then a Cowboys fan if anything. Seriously. Bledsoe is a *beep*ing moron.

2006-10-04T11:04:00.000-07:00

..I really want to wring his neck sometimes...

Jay (1:29:52 PM): I need some powdered water and headlight fluid
Cat (1:29:57 PM): ..why?
Jay (1:30:13 PM): I need it for a project
Cat (1:30:26 PM): okay..for tomorrow?
Cat (1:30:28 PM): *confused*
Jay (1:30:46 PM): Yeah
Cat (1:30:47 PM): sure, what are you going to do with it?
Jay (1:31:05 PM): I need to see how they package them.
Cat (1:31:18 PM): hokay, I'll look for them..
Jay (1:31:25 PM): Thanks
Jay (1:31:40 PM): Oh
Jay (1:31:45 PM): Also, I need some elbow grease.
Cat (1:32:02 PM): hokay..what..type of project is this..do you have to make a package out of these things?
Jay (1:32:28 PM): No, I just need to see the way they are packaged as part of research
Cat (1:33:17 PM): hokay so powedred..water? Headlight fluid, and elbow grease..
Cat (1:33:27 PM): right?
Jay (1:33:48 PM): yup
Cat (1:34:18 PM): i didn't know there was such thing as powdered water
Jay (1:34:36 PM): you've never seen it?
Cat (1:34:40 PM): no..
Jay (1:35:01 PM): It's usually in the soda aisle on the bottom shelf
Cat (1:35:10 PM): mkay
Jay (1:35:26 PM): When are you going to look for it?
Cat (1:35:42 PM): in a little bit, and also after work..so no worries.
Cat (1:35:54 PM): I'll def. get it for you.
Jay (1:35:56 PM): Why after work too?
Cat (1:36:10 PM): just in case waldbounds doesn't have headlight fluid.
Jay (1:36:22 PM): Why wouldn't they?
Jay (1:36:25 PM): They sell it everywhere.
Cat (1:36:47 PM): I duno I just never thought a grocery store would have something like that..but they have a strauss auto store around here too just in case.
Cat (1:36:51 PM): so no worries.
Jay (1:37:17 PM): Forget it then, just the elbow grease and powdered water is fine.
Jay (1:37:21 PM): Is your boss there?
Cat (1:37:35 PM): no worries, I'll get the headlight fluid too, and the powedered water and the elbow grease.
Cat (1:37:38 PM): no, why?
Jay (1:38:10 PM): Holy shit Catherine
Cat (1:38:16 PM): I want to walk down anyway..I want to get some chicken salad.
Cat (1:38:21 PM): what?!
Cat (1:39:17 PM): WHAT?
Cat (1:39:20 PM): are you okay?
Jay (1:39:56 PM): Yeah, I'm fine, nothing
Cat (1:40:06 PM): why are you typing Holy Shit Catherine then?
Jay (1:40:13 PM): Alright, well just ask some guy in the store to help you while you're looking
Jay (1:40:30 PM): If you can't find them, it's no big deal, I'll stop by the pharmacy by Pratt and get them.
Cat (1:40:36 PM): I will.
Cat (1:40:42 PM): uh..your like skipping over my question..
Jay (1:41:13 PM): No, I said it's nothing
Cat (1:41:52 PM): if it's nothing you wouldn't have typed that..so just tell me..
Jay (1:42:18 PM): No, it's really nothing
Cat (1:42:44 PM): hokay then why are you asking if my boss is here?
Jay (1:43:03 PM): Because he'd know where to get headlight fluid around there.
Jay (1:43:14 PM): and probably the other stuff too
Cat (1:43:15 PM): lol, that's very true. I should have thought of that.
Jay (1:43:19 PM): No one is there with you?
Cat (1:43:37 PM): when he comes back I'll ask him. No, the quickbooks crashed and they left it to me to figure out how to get the stuff back.
Cat (1:43:44 PM): I think they all went to lunch..
Jay (1:43:57 PM): Oh alright, ask them about the stuff when they get in. Probably quicker than walking around a store.
Cat (1:44:04 PM): I dunno they just disappear on me.
Cat (1:44:10 PM): nod nod, hokay.
Cat (1:45:08 PM): bleh, oh..uh..are you going to deposit that check for me today?
Jay (1:45:30 PM): Sure, why not.
Cat (1:45:40 PM): I know I know your not my personal bank, I'm just waiting for my visa card from Bank of America so I can close my commerece account..
Cat (1:46:14 PM): but until then I've got no "credit" type thing..so I have to deposit the money into my commerce account, take it out, then deposit half of it into my bank of america account.
Cat (1:46:57 PM): what ever happened to that massage website you were making for James.
Jay (1:50:04 PM): I'm sitll working on it
Jay (1:50:28 PM): Oh and on second thought, don't ask your boss about this stuff.
Jay (1:50:35 PM): It's not exactly professional
Cat (1:50:48 PM): ha, this is the most unprofessional office
Cat (1:51:15 PM): don't worry about it, I'll get it. =P I'll call you before class ends and leave you a message if I can't find anything.
Jay (1:51:42 PM): Oka okay, forget it.
Jay (1:51:46 PM): I can't do this to you.
Cat (1:51:52 PM): what..
Jay (1:51:59 PM): You're just so big eyed and gullable
Jay (1:52:00 PM): Catherine.
Jay (1:52:03 PM): ELBOW GREASE
Jay (1:52:05 PM): POWDERED WATER
Cat (1:52:05 PM): ....
Jay (1:52:10 PM): HEADLIGHT FLUID
Cat (1:52:16 PM): I googled powdered water..they have..that.
Cat (1:52:25 PM): ..OMFG
Jay (1:52:54 PM): I don't want your boss to laugh at you
Cat (1:52:58 PM): where did you get this stupid idea from..
Jay (1:53:26 PM): It's a brilliant idea, you would have gone to the store and asked them for that stuff and they would have just stared at you
Cat (1:53:31 PM): you know I'd help you get your stuff if you said u needed it for class!
Cat (1:53:47 PM): Yes, so who sold you on this idea..to trick your gf into doing this stuff?!
Jay (1:54:16 PM): No one
Jay (1:54:35 PM): Liz convinced me it would be bad of you to ask your boss though
Cat (1:55:10 PM): your horrible! but it shows you how I must love you..if I'd just go..sure..I'll help and not question you.
Cat (1:55:12 PM): grumble
Cat (1:55:21 PM): =P
Jay (1:55:29 PM): That or that you are very easy to fool
Cat (1:55:42 PM): if some other twink asked me I would be..go get it yourself.
Cat (1:55:59 PM): unless I got paid to do this..bah..and you wonder why I want to take martial arts.
Cat (1:56:04 PM): It's useful for times like these.
Jay (1:56:33 PM): ha
Cat (1:56:37 PM): ..well at least that explains the holy shit catherine.
Jay (1:56:50 PM): They won't teach you what a snipe hunt is in karate class
Cat (1:57:01 PM): you only say my full name when your pissed at me, or mad at me, or just in shock.
Cat (1:57:15 PM): just like my mother. I'm not falling for that.
Cat (1:57:26 PM): I'm not asking them, becasue you probably made it up.
Cat (1:57:28 PM): =P
Jay (1:57:36 PM): Made what up?
Cat (1:57:42 PM): snipe hunt
Cat (1:57:58 PM): snipe hunt is when my foot makes contact with your face.
Jay (1:58:05 PM): Nope
Cat (1:59:07 PM): sure it is..what is it then?
Jay (1:59:33 PM): wikipedia it
Jay (1:59:43 PM): It's like a scavenger hunt where none of the items are real
Jay (1:59:50 PM): Like "Go find me a left handed screwdriver"
Cat (1:59:53 PM): like the one you were just sending me on.
Cat (1:59:58 PM): ..*slaps you around*
Jay (2:00:02 PM): Yes, I should have let you go on it too.
Cat (2:00:12 PM): I would have been pissed off.
Jay (2:00:12 PM): You would have had fun.
Jay (2:00:25 PM): Well initially yes, but you would have laughed later
Cat (2:00:28 PM): no it's cold out..I would have been pissed off..then I would laugh after I kicked your ass.
Jay (2:00:31 PM): And you would always remember it.
Cat (2:00:34 PM): yes..after I kicked your ass.
Jay (2:00:42 PM): Yeah, sure
Cat (2:00:42 PM): yes, especially the last part.
Jay (2:00:44 PM): sure

Happy Birthday to me, and more

2006-10-03T15:46:00.000-07:00

Well, for my birthday Jay did several things which were fun, we went to a play, Wicked (I read the book before. It's quite a good read and I suggest it for everyone) then on Friday my friends and sisters came with us to this game place and I had a shot and a few things, then on my birthday itself, we went to the Poetry Festival in Waterloo Village in NJ, then we went to the Four Seasons for dinner. It was a grand old time!

A very memorable experience, truly. I had a wonderful time.

Of course the very next day I screw up and I went and washed Jay's Ipod. So that really sucked, I didn't even know I washed it, that's the worst part.

Hmm..ah, also Jay's sick, I think it's strep throat but hopefully it isn't. Been loading him up with various meds in hopes he shall feel better soon.

So that's my update for the week.

Updates

2006-09-26T06:03:00.001-07:00

Well, past couple of days have been slightly hectic.
Had a bit of rough spots but things are going well I suppose. A new out look in life and well I've returned to writing, alot of poetry which is a good thing.

My birthday is coming up soon, a little excited I would have to say but I am not a very good "celebratory" girl. Jay has things planned so we'll have to see what they are.

We went to see Fearless, he has to do some type of homework on it but he's having a bit of a hard time. I hope ideas flow through his mind soon though!

Been watching this anime, Honey and Clover. It's weird, all drama. Me and the bf had a discussion about the anime and in a way I have to agree, I thought anime was for the impossible..since when has it become something of a soap opera. I just want to finish the series since I started it though. I hate not finishing something I've started to watch.

Looking for other anime in the works also, I'll ask around and see what friends come up with.

Oh..and I still haven't gotten the number for my Karate thing, I'm still waiting to get it, hopefully by next week I'll be practicing my Karate!

Updates

2006-09-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

Want

2006-09-20T11:48:00.000-07:00

I want to take Karate Classes! So I can do self defense, for I don't know why...but it seems like a good idea since I've always wanted to go take them.

Wish me luck!

Weekends

2006-09-10T12:57:00.000-07:00

We watched the Protector...it was..well, alright. I loved the fightin scene and there was this one guy who was in it, he did this brazillian fighting technique it was pretty cool.

Football is underway and I am officially a fan. I can't believe it too.

Been watching anime..all the time recently. I have no idea why I am so hooked on the stuff but I am, I just finished watching Karin and School Rumble etc.

The Gym

2006-09-05T20:40:00.000-07:00

I work out about 4 times a week, and when I'm naughty I am at the gym only thrice a week. I am pretty consistent with my weight, I don't gain too much and I don't lose too much (to my dismay). I am trying to go below my normal weight (though most of my friends won't like it too much, I mean in this day and age, what is skinny really but a term that screams anorexic ((okay I'm not too keen on the spelling thing today)). So if I don't look too much like I have not eaten in three months, I will not be "skinny").

Getting geared up for J's b-day too. Set up some stuff, but I won't give anything away to anyone! Well, okay parts of it has been revealed (I really suck at surprises but I've been pretty good about this one lately.)

What else? New fave anime, School Rumble and my new fave website, Youtube (bow to the Youtube gods!).

Just Sometimes

2006-08-31T06:55:00.000-07:00

Having one of those days. Anxiety is creeping up on me and depression sinking in. Trying to push it out of my mind and keep myself busy. I hate these days.

Usually I can do battle with them, it has been getting easier but there are times when I falter and I feel that everything that I do means nothing. Such cryptic thoughts that are not even worthwhile mentioning.

But ah well. I'll just wait the day out. Hopefully it will all just go away.

Ah, doctors appointment today. Joy..another thing to add to my I wish this day would go away list.

Ceaser and World Domination

2006-08-28T11:27:00.001-07:00

We rented Ceaser, the one from HBO and I was surprised but it was quite entertaining. The plot was interesting and the characters were well formed and I know, I know, many of you out there are saying, hey it's HBO but well..I guess I don't expect much from Cable Channels. I really need to get on that bandwagon.

Other news? Nothing else really, the weekend was slow but I'm glad I had it. After working 5 days a week, getting up at the crack of dawn, it feels good to wake up at 10 am and not have to run to catch the bus.

I also finished my second Vlad Taltos book. I seriously love this series, though I had heard that the third installment is not like the others. It is told from a different perspective hence I am a bit apprehensive about it.

Besides that, nothing else is going on. School for Jay starts soon so he'll be busy once again. I sort of miss school..well..ha not really! But I do miss the classes.

That's really it.

Ceaser and World Domination

2006-08-28T11:27:00.000-07:00

Work

2006-08-25T12:09:00.000-07:00

My bosses crack me up. All of them came in at 9:00 am today and left at 10:30 am citing that it's friday, they want to get started on their weekends. What's the use of coming to work then? Of course I am still catching up with all the mail but at least I've entered in every last of these damn invoices.

Other news? According to Jay EA sucks. So take that EA. See his site for why. And also future buyers of Madden 07 beware.

It rained today and it was insane. The clouds just covered the sky and I swear it looked like it was 8 pm at night. It was crazy too!

I bought Jay's surprise present for him. Haha, he'll love it. I can't wait to see the look on his face when he gets it. He'll be..WTH! Okay..calm, I am at peace.

So Far, Everything Is Going Wrong

2006-08-24T06:28:00.000-07:00

Not having such a great day today. Various things happened, and the worst part, I missed my stop and ended up in the Bronx. My metro card has 2.00 on it so I need another one and well..yeah..my day isn't going that well let's just say.

Me and You, You and Me

2006-08-19T22:03:00.000-07:00

Jay's brother's and his mom went back already so it's back to just me and Jay, well for at least 2 nights then Jay's friend is sleeping over.

It has been a hectic week but it was fun, so I am not complaining.

We saw "Snakes on A Plane". Awesome movie, I suggest you go to see it, if not for just the fun of it.

My family is in Florida this week, they are on vacation. I hope they're all okay and they are having fun.

Sort of on Vacation?

2006-08-16T21:05:00.000-07:00

I guess I haven't been posting much since I'm on a sort of break I guess we can call it. Jay's family is visiting so we are being hosts, hopefully we're good ones.

Have been feening to buy cook books lately, no clue as to why that is so yet.

Reading and knitting, yes I knit and yes I learned how from my little sister. Knitting Jay a scarf, hopefully it will be done before his birthday.

That too, September is coming up so both our birthdays will be here soon, talk about a double celebration.

Ah, and Benji is the reigning champion of "So You Think You Can Dance!" Go Benji! I wanted him to win too, I liked him more then I like Travis, even more so then Donyelle and I liked Donyelle alot. It would have been a toss up for me between Donyelle and Benji so I am glad one of them won.

Keeping On Trucking

2006-08-11T12:51:00.000-07:00

Exactly what I said and what I plan to do. Things were a little hectic beginning of this week but it has slowed down alot, which I am glad for.

We may be taking a little trip next week, not sure yet but we will see. Keep you guys updated on it.

And, well I'm not broke anymore so yes, the angels may begin singing.

Minor Misshaps, Dilbert and Digg

2006-08-04T07:22:00.000-07:00

Well firs off, I almost died yesterday. Ha, yes that was my dramatic opening. But yes, let's just leave it at I was taking too strong of a medicine and it was making my blood thicken and it was a good idea t have gone to the doctors yesterday.

Other news, Dilbert! Yes, this post is funny, (It's on Jay's blog too). Check it out, his rational as to why there is terrorism in third world countries.
http://dilbertblog.typepad.com/the_dilbert_blog/2006/07/heat_wave.html

Lastly, me and Jay were talking about Kevin Rose, the creator of Digg. I have never been into Digg.com but I know Jay talks about it all the time. I've decided to give it a try since I want to know how this lazy sob (haha I'm kidding) can make so much money over doing NOTHING. I want to know his secrets and to do so, I must delve into the enemies territory, therefore I am joining Digg.com.

Heat..Just Heat

2006-08-02T18:08:00.000-07:00

Well, my nose bled today and it all happened because I went outside for about 5 min. That's how hot it was, hot enough that once I walked in and it started gushing. It poured right on my white skirt, so pretty much my skirt is ruined.

Other notes? Helping a friend make her mud, excited about that too.

Hoping me and Jay will go to the beach this weekend. I really want to go and get a tan this weekend. I sort of look forward to our weekend get aways so, we'll see.

That's really it. Work is work, what else is new, nada.

Work And More Money Problems

2006-08-01T06:09:00.000-07:00

Welp, knew it was going to catch up to me. I have soooo many bills to pay when I do get paid it's not even funny. I'll probably be left with about 200 bucks if I'm lucky after I'm done paying off bills upon bills upon bills but at least I am paying them.

I held them off for a bit since I was oh-so broke for the past two months but well, thank god for a job (It's the only thing they are good for).

Other then that went upstate to visit my uncle Joe. Me and Jay slept over and it was fun. We went to a fair and stuff, had sushi, played with Aaron. (You can see some pics on Jay's site).

Hmm What else? Well, getting up early in the morning is becoming tedious. I feel so tired by the time 1 a.m. rolls by that I literally pass out. I suppose I could get up at 6:30 am but then I wouldn't be able to get to the gym (and I am crazy about those things.)

I haven't heard from Christine in a while (you'll remember I have her pic up in one of my blogs) though I heard she got back with M..yet again. I don't know if it's an epidemic or something, just glad I'm not dealing with that.

Baron has some wierd rash that he's getting. I'm very worried about it. We've been giving him medicine and it went away for a while but it has come back. I know it's a heat rash but we can't really do anything to eliviate it for him except try to make sure he doesn't scratch himself but..you know..baron..once you tell him no, it's a yes.

Besides that, that's all I've been doing. Ah, we're planning our trip still, going to happen around August 10th so it should be worth it. I can't wait.

Broke as hell

2006-07-26T16:23:00.000-07:00

Yep, I'm broke..truly. Never thought I'd see the day I would have about only 6 bucks in my bank account. The money for my Godfather already went through so, basically..I am living on the cash I have in my pocket which is less then..10 bucks at the moment.

Thank god I have a metro card, imagine if I didn't? I am a little nervous, having less then 10 dollars in my pocket is always nerve wracking for me but I am waiting for my check to come in so..hopefully that will be tomorrow at the latest.

Thank god I went food shopping already so there is food and stuff in the house. So, let's just hope that there won't be any unnecessary expenses coming up until tomorrow or Friday.

I definately have to deposit my check on Thursday that or cash it. Not sure which one yet.

New Job

2006-07-24T16:17:00.000-07:00

Well, I started my new job and it is going pretty well. What I have to do is pretty much easy and I have my own office so it's great. It sucks though we get paid every other week, so I won't get paid till next, next week.

So basically yeah, it is all good. Tomorrow and the next day my boss won't be there.

I'm trying to get Jay to pick me up but he's not biting so..eh..well it's not that bad. Tired though, since I have to be there at 8 am in the morn so I can leave at 4 pm but it's worth it.

I am excited though!

Happy Birthday Abegail

2006-07-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

Well, it was my sisters 16th Birthday yesterday and it was fun and great. Jay went to the party, my friends came, my sisters friends came and I saw my family. In all it was fun and exciting. She made a load of cash, I can tell you that right now. I'll post up pics tomorrow, or whenever I can steal someone's camera.

Also, I got a job. Hurrah. It is just an office manager position but now I get paid and I only work till 4 pm plus, I can take the bus there and i have my own office and it is at the other end of the building from my boss so that's great. I get paid 35k, plus I don't have to pay for my health insurance so that's even better and they have 401K that they will match whatever I put in.

I am hoping to stay at least a year or two there then maybe, me and Jay may move to Miami or somewhere else. New York is great but it's a little crowded for me at times.

Oh, can I tell you, Jay looks ultra dapper when he is dressed. Very smexy. *meow*

Owning your own island

2006-07-20T14:50:00.000-07:00

Well..I was looking through yahoo and I found the most interesting thing. Apparently you can own your own island for a mere 150,000.00 dollars. So...me and jay are going to invest in a 42 million dollar island. It will only take about say..hmm..a good 200-300 years or so before we can actually go there and live on it. So..

Well, in other news, I may have a job. I will find out tomorrow or next week if it is going down. This time it's for real and the hours are 8-4 pm. Isn't that great?! Yes and I pretty much have my own office which is really, really, really far away from my boss. Thank god!

So..I can't wait to hear about it!

And the heat goes on

2006-07-19T17:50:00.000-07:00

Well, the heat still is going. Very, very annoying. My friend Gabrielle made a banner for me to use, haven't modified it yet but soon I'll put it in. She's awesome. Check out her other works at http://www.yade.de
and support her.

We got Jay's suit fixed and had to lie about it..my lie sucked ass, I was so nervous. I hate lying but blah..Jay's suit looks smexy on him. If he let's me, I'll put up a pic.

Heat Wave

2006-07-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

Heat is getting to me and Jay. We've been keeping to the bedroom where our one and only air conditioner works. Thank god for that. Watching Braveheart, I haven't watched this movie in almost four years so it's good to see it again.

Thanks for whoever is sending those comments. This would be the fourth time I've changed this blog and I'm glad people are taking notice. Thanks again.

Ah, did I tell you I get heat rash? Yes, I get severe heat rash. It is so, ugh..I can't even explain it but yes it is quite frustrating.

Beach Day

2006-07-16T18:42:00.000-07:00

Me, Jay and Baron went to Montauk today. Had alot of fun, though it was a long drive, it was worth it. I actually tanned, Jay read and we went in the water. I love being carried in the water, which Jay did so it was great and fun. Baron on the other hand..did not enjoy the water. You can see his pic on Jay's website. He looks so miserable that it is actually cute so check it out.

Birthdays

2006-07-15T07:37:00.000-07:00

Dad's B-day today. Got confused and thought it was on the 17th, ugh, always. Well didn't know we had are having a barbeque till now, thanks to my little sisters. Wish the whole thing was just a family affair, it's hard being around relatives for me. Ah well. I suppose I'll deal.

Third Layout Change

2006-07-13T21:04:00.000-07:00

Got bitten by the layout bug. Changed it yet again. Hope you all like it.

Jay's having a hell of a time changing his but he still has his old one up. Check it out before he changes it. It's on my links site.

Fave new show: So You Think You Can Dance
It's actually pretty good. Check that out too if you can.

Picking a new design

2006-07-12T18:12:00.000-07:00

Well, I am getting ultra bored with my layout so I want to change it. I don't really know how I'll do it since, well this is blogger so I am pretty much limited to what I can change it to. I am still waiting for Jay to design my "banner" so..well.

I really like Jay's new web design. He has not put it up yet but eventually he will so I think you guys should check it out.

I may be getting a job soon. Thank god. I need one so let's all hope I get one.

We got an Elgato Mac TV, we don't know if it will work at all, so we might actually return it. We don't know how it will turn out so..let's just leave it at that.

Something for "Mah Gurls"

2006-07-08T21:54:00.000-07:00

An interesting article in the New York Times. Thought those feminist readers may get a kick out of this.

http://www.nytimes.com/2006/07/09/education/09college.html

Ungodly Hours

2006-07-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

We woke up at some ungodly hour today, I think at around 1:30 AM. Strange, it is now almost 1 p.m. and we are still not tired. Well at least I am not, don't know about Jay.

FYI I made barbequed beef and shrimp today. The shrimp was dry so I didn't eat much but the beef one was good, though I only had one since well..it's some wierd fanatical diet that I made up and it seems to work.

Jay's sister is had her baby. Can't wait to get the pic on my phone. I'll put it up when I do get it. I bet she'll be really cute. I cannot wait to see her.

I may get a job at RAA. They called me for a second interview, well at least my headhunter called me and mentioned it to me. I have to figure out how I'll do it though if Jay, myself and his brothers are going on a road trip. Ah well, I'll figure it out.

Profile Pic

2006-07-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm too lazy to put a new pic in my photobucket so I am doing it the easy way. Putting it here, then copying it over to my profile so if you see double..well..you'll see double. =P

Getting up Wierd

2006-07-05T04:32:00.000-07:00

Just like I said, getting up has become weirder and wierder. Maybe it is from my lonesome two and a half week vacation or something but yes, I have been getting up earlier and earlier though I am feeling sicker and such.

I'm a little glad though. I need to wake up early. Missed the first day of gym since..well since two weeks though I haven't been eating as much. I guess the whole waking up early deal and feeling queasy makes it all even.

Job interview tomorrow. Part time admin assistant that needs some design skills. Hopefully I will fit the bill, if you know what I mean.

Other than that, all is quiet in the eastern front.

Jay's Home

2006-07-04T04:23:00.000-07:00

Need I say more? My babe is home! *Throws a party* And it's the fourth of July. Always good to have. And best of all..my babe is home. Ha..okay let me shut up.

Other news? I finished reading Freud's Theories on Sexuality and in retrospect, I think alot of it is just bs. Some sections where he talks about strange perversions, I can understand but the others, not really. I wonder where he comes up with these things and why people actually believe it.

Other news? Heard of Ben Wallace? Suggest you look it up, seems the Bulls may be the new team to root for in the '07 year.

God daugther

2006-07-01T17:00:00.000-07:00

Picture of my God daughter Eleiza Bautista. Adorable isn't she?

Christine

2006-06-28T21:26:00.000-07:00

One of the hottest girls on my list, and if I was..attracted to girls well, she may be one of the few I'd hit on. Though Jay can vouch, I am definately not attracted to women but here is a pic of her for peeps to drool over.

Almost There

2006-06-28T11:40:00.000-07:00

My God Father died yesterday, the night was long and ardious. I reminisced about all the times he had wrote to me, all the advice he has given, all the love he shared with everyone. He was a bachelor and never had children of his own, save me or that's what he always said. I always visited him when I went home, he always wrote a letter to me whenever someone was coming from the Philippines. He was my dad's best friend and when I was young, he was like a second father to me.

May he rest in peace.

I cried all last night, though I didn't know why. Perhaps it was regret that I never tried harder to return his affection, or that I rarely sent a letter home to him when someone was going home but regardless of that, as Jay said, there is nothing I could do but remember that there are those times we shared when he was happy and content. That he had enjoyed life, to the fullest as he knew it and that now, maybe he might feel a little bit freer then he could have before.

Maybe I am lying to myself, or maybe it is just wishful thinking. Either way, it doesn't matter. It only matters that he is resting in peace.

Sighing

2006-06-22T14:23:00.000-07:00

Well...I WILL NEVER LET HIM LEAVE ME BY MYSELF FOR MORE THAN A WEEK EVER AGAIN. God..I miss him. It borders a little on the pathetic side but you know what? I don't care. We text each other everyday and I try to call him daily also since I miss him so much, and he misses me too I know that..sigh. See his stupid idea of leaving me behind but honestly I couldn't have afforded going anyway..so..blah..well next year I will go with him, that's definate. So..here are some pics we took before he left, the dog loved his day out at the park and I am sure he is cursing me now that it is just me and him at home..MWHAHAHA torture time for Baron! jk!

MISSING YOU

2006-06-18T23:58:00.000-07:00

Well it is the second night and I am feeling like crap. My babe is in NIgeria and oh how I miss him. Even watching the game is really boring without him. I wonder what he is doing. I am happy though he called me twice. I miss ya.

Leaving

2006-06-12T00:09:00.000-07:00

Babe's leaving in less then 5 days. I will miss him so much. I wish I can go with him to Nigeria but..alas...next year we will go together and I can't wait. I don't know what to do for the next two and a half weeks he will be gone. Probably job hunting or something like that I suppose.

On another note, the Heat are majorly sucking. It is so sad that they aren't even trying anymore. Pisses me off.

Next week is Father's day. I've got to buy something for my dad that he will love. Hopefully I'll have enough money for that.

Friends

2006-06-08T19:03:00.000-07:00

Girlfriends are great. I missed hanging out with them so it was good to hear from them and to see them. They seemed to be doing well even though one of them just broke up with the guy who she loved, and still does. The other one thinks kissing isn't cheating. They are both funny but I love them each in their own way.

I'm happy that my bf gets along with them. It would be heartbreaking if he didn't get along with them so I am glad that he does the same for my friends.

Job Hunting

2006-06-05T17:24:00.000-07:00

Still haven't found a job. Which sucks, I may end up getting hired by IAG which will be interesting. I am hoping that they will hire me though, I'd be nice to be paid 20 bucks an hour for watching tv. =)

Mudding is still fun, though I am being "hunted" which sucks. I gave my eq to someone else to hold though so I should be good for a while.

Besides that my bf is leaving for Nigeria soon. I will miss him like hell but I know he'll miss me too so that is good.

Love

2006-05-29T17:27:00.000-07:00

Ever been in love? It's great. My babe is sweet as hell. Though sometimes we get into fights but things are getting alot better. I believe in us. Had to say this today.

Sketches

2006-05-26T16:14:00.000-07:00

Sketches. Enjoy

Survey

2006-05-23T17:50:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's survey was a success. I am glad to say that I did quite well. They interviewed me for about 20 min before letting me free. Next to find a job. I am waiting for my second interview for this job I went for as a paralegal secretary. I do hope I get it.

BTW I hate having my...monthly friend.

Role Playing

2006-05-20T21:46:00.000-07:00

Me and my boyfriend role play for fun. It's great, that is how I met him by the way. I am not so into roleplaying anymore, more so for trying to get as high level as I can. That's really it. Ah, by the way we are going to go back to writing for Bachelorchic.com. It's great! I can't wait! Hope you guys will be reading it!

Job Hunting

2006-05-18T14:45:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm job hunting right now. I know I don't have to write in this blog anymore but I figure I will keep it. Nothing better to do. I don't really want a job, I sort of like the whole loafing around but as we all know, we must all make money and my long vacation has ended. Finals next week also. Wish me luck! Besides that, nothing else.

School is Ending

2006-05-16T12:54:00.000-07:00

Well, school is almost over, tomorrow is my last day, then finals next week. I'm thrilled though now comes the difficult part, the job hunt. I am trying to get myself a full time job that I can sort of stand, or a part time job, if I plan to go back to school next semester but that's all up in the air. Right now it's all about money, how much I have and what I can afford and unfortunately I can't afford much.

Ideally I would love to have a part time job and take out another loan to finish up my studio art degree but you know how that goes.

Most of my art work hasn't been up to par. I'm not at all inspired by anything. I haven't even written my little storyline lately which I should really do.

So in all, my job break is ending, time to find a job to cover the expenses. Sigh.

sick

2006-05-08T19:06:00.000-07:00

sick as a dog. babe's taking care of me. I want to hurl my whole life out. seriously.

Final Projects

2006-05-06T21:41:00.000-07:00

Another two of my final projects. Just resized them, enjoy!

Pirogeth

2006-05-06T16:50:00.000-07:00

My new character will be based on Megatokyo's character, Piro's best friend who is an alcholic and prone to violence. I hope to pull it off. Will find a picture to load up. For now here is a small picture of piro since he's one of my fave characters right now.

Here are some other works

2006-04-29T21:21:00.000-07:00

Some work I did during the school year, not all of it though. Any comments would be much appreciated since I am not handing it in till around May 15, 2006.

Project

2006-04-29T20:56:00.000-07:00

This is part of my future project, not sure which picture I will use for the background. Can you guess what the first picture is? Heh..I'll upload some of my other work so you guys can see it too.

Depressed

2006-04-28T10:39:00.000-07:00

Yes, see above. My mom's birthday is in two days and I can't even go see her. I miss her. Lost her, I miss her.

Work Continues

2006-04-24T09:15:00.001-07:00

New idea for my final project, meaning I have to go out and buy a doll. Going to look into bulemia, yay, something I have a little history of myself. As for my painting project, I know exactly what I will do. Thank frudgen god.

I have to put up some pictures of my artworks. I also want to put up a picture of my sisters and my family, always something good to have.

I want to learn how to make my own website but I am too lazy to do it.

Also need to find a part time job for the summer since I am applying for Fall classes in September. Yay...right..sucks.

Anything else? Nope, ah, my attachment to my writing is proceeding as planned, though I have not written anything on it since about 2 weeks ago. I will update it today if I have time, I want to write the first chapter, though I will end up fleshing it out more. This is more like a short version of the story until I flesh it out into something bigger and better.

Can't wait for school to end. I want to have the time to actually do some of the work I wanted to finish. Maybe I will finish this book this summer. I can send it to get published...ahhahaa..like anyone will ever publish my works, but who the hell knows.

Will think more on it later.

Check it out, maybe I can get J to help me figure out how to put up pictures on this stupid blog.

Work Continues

2006-04-24T09:15:00.000-07:00