Random thoughts that flit through the mind of a semi-neurotic woman.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Restless
Embodiment of anxiety, Utter loss of control
Mind numbing headaches For filtered intense thoughts.
Anxious dreams of old And now all in a stew.
Time to fly high But afraid of the fall From the precipice.
I like writing cryptic poetry. Some of what I'm feeling now. Not too good but always even in darkness there is light for then what is the inky blackness without it's contrast partner?
There are things you want to say but you know you can't say them. It isn't that you don't have words for them, or maybe it is.
I can fill this blank paper with so many words, so many thoughts but is it worth even writing. Maybe it is a passing emotion that I experience because of that moment.
Is there a we, or is it just I and then you, then the gap of words, actions, emotions that distance people.
We are a strange lot. Sometimes I feel like there shouldn't be any feelings, that I'm just made up of feelings. Better not to feel, but then I know that without them, I wouldn't know the joys too.
Better not to think about it. I'm being very complicated right now.
Sorry about that, haven't posted in a while. Actually have been caught up in some new J-dramas. My new favorite, Nodame Cantabile. Very funny and very sweet.
Me and Jay have gotten our couch. It should be here by Monday. We went to see 300. Awesome movie. Jay says we can see it again so I'm happy. He has spring break right now but we're not really doing anything. We are going to see the Maimi/Nets game so that should be fun.
Hmm..nothing else going on really. Ah, we redid our 2nd bedroom into Jay's work room. It looks very nice. Next week we are going to redo the livingroom too. It wasn't bad. It cost us 400 bucks, and 2 days of manual labor.
Oh, Jay redid his website. You should check it out. My sisters graduation is on May 12. I'm proud of her even though she's not talking to me right now. Heheheheh.
Hmm what else? The search for a new job continues, oh and I sprained my ankle. =( Hopefully it will get better soon.
About Me: A graduate of Hunter College with a B.A. in American Literature. I flit around from various arts, games, blogs just sampling. Haven't really settled on anything yet.
I enjoy spending time with my tormentor, Jay and his dog Baron Von Doom (yes, that's his full name).
