Random thoughts that flit through the mind of a semi-neurotic woman.
Friday, April 20, 2007
So I didn't get the job
Well I didn't get the job I was applying for. I really liked the place too and the partners were super nice and I felt it was a job that I could eventually move up from.
I feel like the jobs I've been getting are mostly dead end jobs or jobs that I have absolutely no interest in. This one was slightly different and I'm very, very disappointed that I didn't get the job.
They said that they really did like me too. It's unfortunate I didn't know the software so basically it was based on skill.
Sometimes I wonder where I'm going to end up, what I'll be doing in the future. In truth I don't really have a career. I've got jobs but nothing to even call a "Career".
That sort of makes me slightly depressed and tired of looking and applying for job upon job upon job.
I always move from my job at least after a year because I get bored of it, because it gets monotinous. I feel like I've no goal and that everything I'm doing is really pointless and mediocre.
I wish I can talk to someone about this. Its making me slightly depressed you know. Nobody really understands how important a job is that will pay for your tuition. I can't take out anymore loans. I'm totally maxed out on loans. I can barely save enough for rent much less tuition fees.
Sometimes I wish I can win millions of dollars or that I was smart before and saved my money but then I never did, how can I when I was working to pay for school and even when I was working it wasn't enough to cover it. I always ended up taking loans. It's really ridiculous. And slightly depressing.
That was really why I wanted the damn job in the first place. It was a way to pursue the degree without having the added trouble of paying the tuition for it.
About Me: A graduate of Hunter College with a B.A. in American Literature. I flit around from various arts, games, blogs just sampling. Haven't really settled on anything yet.
I enjoy spending time with my tormentor, Jay and his dog Baron Von Doom (yes, that's his full name).
