Random thoughts that flit through the mind of a semi-neurotic woman.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Christine
One of the hottest girls on my list, and if I was..attracted to girls well, she may be one of the few I'd hit on. Though Jay can vouch, I am definately not attracted to women but here is a pic of her for peeps to drool over.
My God Father died yesterday, the night was long and ardious. I reminisced about all the times he had wrote to me, all the advice he has given, all the love he shared with everyone. He was a bachelor and never had children of his own, save me or that's what he always said. I always visited him when I went home, he always wrote a letter to me whenever someone was coming from the Philippines. He was my dad's best friend and when I was young, he was like a second father to me.
May he rest in peace.
I cried all last night, though I didn't know why. Perhaps it was regret that I never tried harder to return his affection, or that I rarely sent a letter home to him when someone was going home but regardless of that, as Jay said, there is nothing I could do but remember that there are those times we shared when he was happy and content. That he had enjoyed life, to the fullest as he knew it and that now, maybe he might feel a little bit freer then he could have before.
Maybe I am lying to myself, or maybe it is just wishful thinking. Either way, it doesn't matter. It only matters that he is resting in peace.
Well...I WILL NEVER LET HIM LEAVE ME BY MYSELF FOR MORE THAN A WEEK EVER AGAIN. God..I miss him. It borders a little on the pathetic side but you know what? I don't care. We text each other everyday and I try to call him daily also since I miss him so much, and he misses me too I know that..sigh. See his stupid idea of leaving me behind but honestly I couldn't have afforded going anyway..so..blah..well next year I will go with him, that's definate. So..here are some pics we took before he left, the dog loved his day out at the park and I am sure he is cursing me now that it is just me and him at home..MWHAHAHA torture time for Baron! jk!
Well it is the second night and I am feeling like crap. My babe is in NIgeria and oh how I miss him. Even watching the game is really boring without him. I wonder what he is doing. I am happy though he called me twice. I miss ya.
Babe's leaving in less then 5 days. I will miss him so much. I wish I can go with him to Nigeria but..alas...next year we will go together and I can't wait. I don't know what to do for the next two and a half weeks he will be gone. Probably job hunting or something like that I suppose.
On another note, the Heat are majorly sucking. It is so sad that they aren't even trying anymore. Pisses me off.
Next week is Father's day. I've got to buy something for my dad that he will love. Hopefully I'll have enough money for that.
Girlfriends are great. I missed hanging out with them so it was good to hear from them and to see them. They seemed to be doing well even though one of them just broke up with the guy who she loved, and still does. The other one thinks kissing isn't cheating. They are both funny but I love them each in their own way.
I'm happy that my bf gets along with them. It would be heartbreaking if he didn't get along with them so I am glad that he does the same for my friends.
Still haven't found a job. Which sucks, I may end up getting hired by IAG which will be interesting. I am hoping that they will hire me though, I'd be nice to be paid 20 bucks an hour for watching tv. =)
Mudding is still fun, though I am being "hunted" which sucks. I gave my eq to someone else to hold though so I should be good for a while.
Besides that my bf is leaving for Nigeria soon. I will miss him like hell but I know he'll miss me too so that is good.
About Me: A graduate of Hunter College with a B.A. in American Literature. I flit around from various arts, games, blogs just sampling. Haven't really settled on anything yet.
I enjoy spending time with my tormentor, Jay and his dog Baron Von Doom (yes, that's his full name).
